Rage and Regeneration

[jahpunk]

I am new to restoring and even really any awareness that I was robbed and mutilated at the day of my birth. The birth of my twin sons 9 months ago has catapulted me on this journey and I am so grateful to them and my wife for bringing me to the knowledge I have today that I can restore my foreskin.

I have so much I want to vent to rage to start a huge fire in the minds of everyone who, like me, didnt even KNOW they had been robbed and mutilated by society and the supposed healing professionals who did this to us...what kind of evil mind trick is that?--to fuck with the most sacred and sensitive parts and then have it be so commonplace few men stop to question it.

So my sons birth has triggered my journey like I said, in that we knew and had clarity we were not going to cut them, and in the ensuing months of their sweet new lives I felt it would be wise to learn how to clean/care for them as I was cut at birth...as many of you here already know what I have found is so deeply disturbing, so violently abhorrent...I am still in disbelief that such a practice is still done at all, and I am so fucking furious at my parents and the idiocy and greed and lies that allowed me and so many others to suffer this without anyone stopping and using any ounce of reason and compassion...so this is the basic background violence they permit and encourage for males here in the usa, while simultaneously denouncing and outlawing any such treatment of females: hipocrisy!

And now when I am in public or talking with male friends I am struck by how wounded we all are, fundamentally violated...

I am also restoring with the tlc-x, and have already (almost 1 month) been feeling much more sensitivity and increase from about Cl-2 to maybe Cl-3...(?) not sure of the details and even if it will work but I have to heal my heart and my body the only safe way I can. I wish I could talk with more restorers face to face, I have too many questions, and I am shocked and appalled this issue (and penises in general in america) is still so taboo to discuss. I have been asking all my buddies if they were cut etc to try to open up dialogue, but most of them are either staunchly pro-infant mutilation (being cut themselves) or don't have kids and so haven't had to confront their own trauma.

I think of my father, who had me tortured so that he wouldn't have to face all the things I am facing now that I see my boys' lil baby penises so perfect and un-fucked-with...I am glad and grateful to be ending the cycle of violence against men in our society, it just hurts to realize how victimized we all have been to complete anti-natural, anti-sex ideologies.

So much more to say I just wanted to reach out here and connect with others.

[admin]

Welcome. Sorry you were cut.

[jahpunk]

thanks ron. you see my point about everyone being in such denial about the viciously evil nature of this practice? i mean, you have been in this movement for a long time, how do you stay positive in such a fascist man-hating place and continue to restore as well?

[Mandible]

I stay positive by trying to be more single-minded about it. Sometimes you have to put things in context to minimize the effect it has on you. I don't think about how much I didn't have then, but how much I do have now.

[Gun Del Sol]

. . .I am glad and grateful to be ending the cycle of violence against men in our society . . .

That is honestly one of the best ways to look at this happening. When we are next in the cycle, when that ball is in our court, when all of the eyes are on us, the most righteous thing to do is to end the pain. It hurts so much that this has happened to us, indeed. But if we are focusing too hard on what has happened it may become that much harder to muster up enough strength to help end outdated/largely unnecessary practices.

When garbage comes our way, toss in the trash! Luckily the world IS changing for the better. One day people with penises will never have to worry about unnecessary circumcision happening to them. We just have to keep fighting the powers that be until the necessary benefits are reaped.

And boy, will the fruits of that labor taste ever so sweet. The time is always ripe for change!

[javeflake]

One of my aunts was talking about a medical procedure and another one said "isnt that um more risky than circumcision?"
There was an awkward pause... "can we change the subject?".
This was fairly soon after taking up restoration and discovering the true nature of the taboo snip, so I left the room to calm down.
They all knew it was wrong, they all had some degree of guilt. I think most people just take it as normal and beleive in the lies that it does no harm. If mothers begin to regret it when they see their child's blood or hear their screams it is too late, so they ignore their guilt and convince themselves that they have done their sons a favor.
As far as I know all of my male cousins are cut as infants. My uncle recently announced that they are having their first child, I have to force myself to not care if it is a boy because it is almost certain that he will be cut.
I used to be so worried and sad whenever I heard of a new boy in the family but there is not much I can do about it, the fathers are all cut and most of them already have a son who is cut.

[Trey47]

We must start educating girls in Jr. High. Boys also but mostly girls, if they as mothers can be taught this is wrong there will be no way they will let anyone near their baby with a knife!

[Canadajuice]

One of my aunts was talking about a medical procedure and another one said "isnt that um more risky than circumcision?"
There was an awkward pause... "can we change the subject?".
This was fairly soon after taking up restoration and discovering the true nature of the taboo snip, so I left the room to calm down.
They all knew it was wrong, they all had some degree of guilt. I think most people just take it as normal and beleive in the lies that it does no harm. If mothers begin to regret it when they see their child's blood or hear their screams it is too late, so they ignore their guilt and convince themselves that they have done their sons a favor.
As far as I know all of my male cousins are cut as infants. My uncle recently announced that they are having their first child, I have to force myself to not care if it is a boy because it is almost certain that he will be cut.
I used to be so worried and sad whenever I heard of a new boy in the family but there is not much I can do about it, the fathers are all cut and most of them already have a son who is cut.

I think you have an obligation to your potential future nephew to persuade his father to leave him intact. I know it's tough, but it's the right thing to do. For his sake.

[Gun Del Sol]

I used to be so worried and sad whenever I heard of a new boy in the family but there is not much I can do about it, the fathers are all cut and most of them already have a son who is cut.

Maybe find a relative, good friend to the both of you, or someone else whom has kids to help you persuade your uncle. Or even show him a video of how the procedure is done, and what could have happened to himself.

One of my closest friends is having another son. He himself is not circumcised - the father - and neither is his first child. But he was thinking about snipping his second son. So I said this:

Me - "sex was not as enjoyable for me since I am circumcised."

Friend - "I heard they may have problems growing up though."

Me - "are YOU circumcised?"

Friend - * shakes head left and right *

Me - "have YOU ever had any problems?"

Friend - * shakes head left and right *

Me - *one more point for the intactivists!

[mark1234]

I just joined this site and want to relate some of my story and how I discovered the truth about my circumcision. I was born with partial ocular albinism ( a somewhat rare difference in the colour of one eye) and had come to accept it as something I was born with and went months without thinking about it consciously. There was something else about my body that I knew was different, but I figured that was something I was born with as well, just a defect or something. What I'm refering to was a large adhesion on my penis, a thick piece of skin connecting the head to the shaft. It was rather large and started to cause bleeding, tearing and pain during any sexual activity. Out of embarrassment and a severe fear of doctors I never did anything about it or talked about it. When I looked it up at the age of 23 I was not prepared for what I was about to learn... Not only was it not an accident, it was the result of circumcision as a baby. To make things even worse, the adhesion was the direct result of poor care being taken by my parents after the procedure. Feeling outraged and in disbelief, I sat down with my dad to confront him. When I expressed my outrage he looked at me in disbelief and totally puzzled by my concern. The first thing he exclaimed : I DID YOU A FAVOUR!!!

[mjwise]

I just joined this site and want to relate some of my story and how I discovered the truth about my circumcision. I was born with partial ocular albinism ( a somewhat rare difference in the colour of one eye) and had come to accept it as something I was born with and went months without thinking about it consciously. There was something else about my body that I knew was different, but I figured that was something I was born with as well, just a defect or something. What I'm refering to was a large adhesion on my penis, a thick piece of skin connecting the head to the shaft. It was rather large and started to cause bleeding, tearing and pain during any sexual activity. Out of embarrassment and a severe fear of doctors I never did anything about it or talked about it. When I looked it up at the age of 23 I was not prepared for what I was about to learn... Not only was it not an accident, it was the result of circumcision as a baby. To make things even worse, the adhesion was the direct result of poor care being taken by my parents after the procedure. Feeling outraged and in disbelief, I sat down with my dad to confront him. When I expressed my outrage he looked at me in disbelief and totally puzzled by my concern. The first thing he exclaimed : I DID YOU A FAVOUR!!!

Mark,

I am sorry you had to go through that and be faced with an utterly unsympathetic parent, even if the face of an objective complication of the procedure. You are not alone when it comes to facing a parent who is utterly unwilling to admit they made a choice that did you no favors and ultimately hurt you.

[mark1234]

Thanks for your sympathy mjwise. Having made these discoveries on circumcision I have been blown away by how little understanding there is. I feel at times as if I am the only sane person in my family!! At a later date I had a discussion with my dad, both of my brothers and uncle. He and my oldest brother tried to convince me I was wrong to be so upset about this. Except when my dad asked my uncle ( trying to back up his argument) if my uncle had his son cut, my uncle responded: no, I remember feeling the same way and decided not to put my son through that. So maybe I'm not the last sane one in the family. But even still, every conversation I have with other men on this subject goes exactly the same way. Deny, defend, dismiss.