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    I'm not sure if this is rant or grief but I've noticed that even when I'm just going about my day there are constant reminders of circumcision, from jokes on the internet to my coworkers and even just subtle visual cues become these little "triggers" that make my blood run cold and make me remember that I am circumcised and even though I restore I will never have my real foreskin. When I watch porn I try to avoid videos with cut actors because I feel that pain again and I look at my penis and remember that my manhood was robbed from me at birth and I should be ashamed to be a man. I try every day to feel more masculine, I'm working on gaining muscle, growing my foreskin and learning to be more self sufficient and even though I feel better than before I started all of this I still feel like I'll never truly be a man, I'm just a damaged creature that doesn't understand the world around it. I don't have any faith in foregen anymore but I still wish there was a way to create a new prepuce exactly like the original one and just somehow magically attach it without scars or stitches so I could finally feel whole.

    Sorry for this grief post guys I try to keep it positive but it's like 5 in the morning and I just feel like I need to get this out so I can sleep, all these thoughts won't let me sleep and maybe just spewing it all over this grief post will give an opportunity for the exhaustion to take me

  • #2
    I hear you.
    I don’t know if you have seen this website before, but is very good. Lots of articles about what it means to be a man etc, drawing of lots of examples throughout history. He also does a really excellent podcast.
    https://www.artofmanliness.com

    Being a man and masculinity has nothing to with your foreskin or lack of. There is nothing wrong with wanting to get it back to its normal state, at least as much as is possible. We all want to do that, however, sometimes in life one has to learn what baggage is holding you back at let it go. That sounds so easy, but often it can be really difficult to do.

    Never be ashamed of being a man.

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    • #3
      Originally posted by resto-mod View Post
      I'm not sure if this is rant or grief but I've noticed that even when I'm just going about my day there are constant reminders of circumcision, from jokes on the internet to my coworkers and even just subtle visual cues become these little "triggers" that make my blood run cold and make me remember that I am circumcised and even though I restore I will never have my real foreskin. When I watch porn I try to avoid videos with cut actors because I feel that pain again and I look at my penis and remember that my manhood was robbed from me at birth and I should be ashamed to be a man. I try every day to feel more masculine, I'm working on gaining muscle, growing my foreskin and learning to be more self sufficient and even though I feel better than before I started all of this I still feel like I'll never truly be a man, I'm just a damaged creature that doesn't understand the world around it. I don't have any faith in foregen anymore but I still wish there was a way to create a new prepuce exactly like the original one and just somehow magically attach it without scars or stitches so I could finally feel whole.

      Sorry for this grief post guys I try to keep it positive but it's like 5 in the morning and I just feel like I need to get this out so I can sleep, all these thoughts won't let me sleep and maybe just spewing it all over this grief post will give an opportunity for the exhaustion to take me
      1. We are all, circ'd and intact, in a mind-set that we are damaged creatures at odds with the world. This (again) has to do with what we've been taught via so many social and advertising influences, and has nothing to do with circ directly. Don't use circ as your identity because it isn't, which is what Phoenix is essentially saying in his good post.

      2. And this is the mind-set that Foregen hopes to capitalize on. You can see that they are bogus, but they hope that you will weaken and give them financial support. They have done nothing, said nothing, to deserve it.

      Restoration is one of the first steps in reclaiming your own personal strength; one way to open up to the world rather than being at odds with it. Please continue to restore. Down the road you will be stronger for it.

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      • #4
        Recently on Broad City a side character discussed how he might get circumcised due to recurrent infections, but seemed to talk himself out of it due to the sexual advantages he discovered he had over his cut peers:


        I was busy gloating about how my beloved Abbi and Ilana (stars / writers of Broad City) managed to overcome their heritage to make such a beautifully subversive case for intactness. Then a couple weeks later on the show we learn he went through with the circumcision. Ugh.

        Yesterday on intactivist Howard Stern's show they played a prank call to a religious podcast. The caller says he is distracted by super penile sensitivity due to his intact foreskin. I'm thinking, cool they got the message when I recently wrote them a dozen times to persuade a staffer not to circumcise his new son. Then the caller - instead of asking the podcast host for forgiveness for his chronic masturbation habit - grabs a machete and pretend-lops off his own foreskin, then claims to immediately be wanking with less pleasure.

        Even people on our team have a poor understanding of what foreskin is and does, and what circumcision is and does.
        -Ron Low
        Service@TLCTugger.com
        847 414-1692 Chicago

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        • #5
          I feel this way. Not a single day goes by when I don’t think about it. Like it’s been burned into my mind.

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          • #6
            Originally posted by Fabihanski View Post
            I feel this way. Not a single day goes by when I don’t think about it. Like it’s been burned into my mind.
            Well, you're also working every day to grow your skin, so obviously you think about it at least once per day when you put on a device or use manual methods.

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            • #7
              thank you guys fort the replies and advice, i'm sorry I wasn't able to respond sooner. I got to say that I know that having a foreskin doesn't make me a man but I feel as though it's one of the contributors for making me feel uncomfortable with my body and a therefore one of things that made me feel ashamed to be male as I was growing up. I remember looking at my penis as a child and feeling shame in myself, I couldn't stand to be naked and my parents always shamed me telling me "don't touch your pee pee" and "don't even look at it". I remember I used to take swimming lessons at the local ymca and I couldn't let any of the other boys see me naked in the locker room and my dad had to often use a towel as a privacy curtain or I would go into the bathroom stall to change. I know i'm getting better, I'm accepting that I am a man and I'm trying to be more comfortable in the locker room now that i'm working out but I sometimes feel so out of place because all the other men I meet seem to be accepting of who they are and I seem to be left behind in my development. I have though been envisioning this for a while now and now that I've started I can't and don't want to go back, I can't blame my parents or my circumcision on how I grew up because I have no control over it but I can change myself for the better and learn from this "experience" and It can actually be funny sometimes because I'll occasionally meet people I knew in high school and they say "wow you sure have changed, you look so much older!" I graduated 3 years ago but I'm not looking back at it anymore because I look at the pictures of me from that time and I barely remember who I was at that point in time. I'm still excited that i'm actually restoring my foreskin and it sometimes freaks me out that one day I'll wake up and go to the bathroom and actually notice that for once the head of my penis isn't exposed and is covered with skin, I know i'm kind of rambling at this point but it's just crazy to feel like I actually have control over my body for once!

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              • #8
                Originally posted by Fabihanski View Post
                I feel this way. Not a single day goes by when I don’t think about it. Like it’s been burned into my mind.
                I feel the same too I just hope that once I restore it will make it go away or at least not have so much power over me but I know I don't feel nearly as bad as I would if I gave up restoring or never started to begin with. Keep on tugging brother!

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                • #9
                  Originally posted by resto-mod View Post
                  I'm trying to be more comfortable in the locker room now that i'm working out but I sometimes feel so out of place because all the other men I meet seem to be accepting of who they are and I seem to be left behind in my development.
                  The locker room, lots of people get that feeling when in the locker room changing particularly if it is an environment that they are not use to. In my gym I see all different ages of men with different attitudes to changing. E.g. putting on pants while still wearing a towel around their waist and then there are others who walk around naked straight from the shower, etc. After awhile you just don't care what others think about your body. Let's put it this way, the locker room and public toilet are about the only two places that you can let it hang out without anyone giving a second thought. Nobody will say anything, because if they did well that would be rather "creepy". Honestly, most men simply don't care what another bloke looks like. It's not like they haven't seen male genitals before. Anyway, in a round about way I am trying to say is don't be concerned with what other people may or may not think because you actually have no idea what is going through their mind. Best not speculate as it only does your head in,
                  Keep your head up and go about your normal business.

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                  • #10
                    Don't forget that you are not at all alone in this. I feel this pain on a - if not daily - every-other-daily basis.

                    You will keep tugging.
                    You will keep growing skin.
                    You will have the majority of what you lost.

                    Do not demonize what you have now or else you'll suffer. I'm learning to not do that as well. So, you have to change your mindset, try looking at the issue from different perspectives. Maybe stop referring to yourself as cut! You've got foreskin, it just doesn't stay forward on its own right now Simple mind tricks like this kind of help me. I don't know how far along in your restoration process you are, but every milestone I've come across, I've been able to say I'm less and less like a circumcised man every day - these things keep me going. It's so difficult, it's so emotionally painful, and it's so unfair - BUT YOU GOT THIS!! You will be just fine! You are a man!

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