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    I hate my circumcision and my penis. But I suppose that's understandable, a lot of people have issues with how they view their body.
    But what I hate the most is how much I've been affected by my circumcision.
    I'm obsessed with it. I'm obsessed with the fact that I was cut. I can't do anything about it, I guess.
    I live with an area where the majority of people are uncut. At the worst times, when I go shopping for example, I can't help but think that the majority of people around my are perfectly fine. I feel lower than them. I really envy how they can go about their days, the majority of them, and not have to dwell on their penis, or the fact that it was cut.
    And another real blow to my self-esteem? My parents waited a little for the rabbi (we aren't even Jewish) they hired to circumcise me because my penis was smaller than usual, even for a baby apparently. I don't even know how that works, what the fuck.
    I hate how when I see foreign actors on certain TV shows, I think immediately about how they are probably uncut.
    I brought up the question about why I was cut to my dad, who is also cut. Innocently, too. No anger in my voice. He just got pissy. I brought up to my mom more than once and she suggested that I was getting obsessed, and she is right, she just doesn't know the full extent.
    Why does this have to affect me so much? Millions of men all across the world are cut all the time, but why did it have to get to me? So many cut men go about their lives without a second thought, and I can't even go maybe half an hour at best without thinking about it. Am I just weak? Am I just being silly? I probably am, and I don't know how to stop myself.
    I can't wear a device. I move too much during the day to do that. Even tape with an elastic strap, probably too much. I can't even take a break every hour to do cyclic tensioning until I'm home.
    This whole circumcision thing is really wearing me down.

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    I tried tugging again I feel like a damn idiot for two minutes tugging on my tiny dick just for some little piece of shit skin to grow back.
    I don't even know who to talk about for this. I've tried bringing it up with a therapist (I was seeing him for other things, just thought I'd try talking about circumcision), and he just smirked. I knew he'd laugh if I pushed it any further. Other therapists in the area are again, in a majority cut area. I'm not gonna get anywhere talking to one.
    I don't know man, I don't know why I can't just let go of this and move on with my life. Something has probably got to be wrong with me. One of my friends just laughed and almost brought it up with other people.
    I wish I could do something about this. I can hardly feel my penis to begin with.

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    • #3
      In my opinion there are 3 types of man who are circumcised who knows the hard cold negative impacts of circumcision.

      -Circumcised and informed to facts of the demerit of circumcision and is still okay with it since what done is done.

      - Circumcised and informed of the facts and circumsising and did greieved of it but wont restore. He will though advocate againts circumcision like if he had a new born baby boy.

      - Circumcised and informed of the facts and circumsising and did greieved of it very hardly. They will also do any means to feel "wholer" again.

      All restorers belong ​​​​​to the last category. Sorry for your loss but you have a chance to make it better to you sexually, mentally and to your partner. If cant seem to find the motivation please retain your glans using some band aids then after a few weeks you'll start to feel more sensitive in your glans.

      I reccomend you to watch Greyson Murphy's playlist. They video about foreskin restoration and circumcision. I am sure they will lift your spirits.

      https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Of_wz3zrP_Q
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      Good luck to your restoring and KOT! (KEEP ON TUGGING!)

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      • #4
        Originally posted by Corverad View Post
        I can't even take a break every hour to do cyclic tensioning until I'm home.
        1000s of men have restored without giving a thought to cyclic anything. This is not the problem.

        But it doesn't make sense to try restoring during the day if you can't keep a device on or get to privacy within say a half-hour to adjust a device that needs attention. Retain during the day and tug other times.
        -Ron Low
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        847 414-1692 Chicago

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        • #5
          Sorry to hear that you're so affected by it, I have felt like that too, and for years I thought "why me?why can't I be normal?" you need to talk it through with a partner, friend, medical professional or better still, a forum like this, we're all on the same page here.

          I'm new to this forum too and I have been amazed by the breadth of advice and information offered and the topics covered, I have a lot of mental hang-ups about being circumcised, and have had for the last 20 years, last Tuesday I went to see a urologist about restoring my foreskin (+ gaining some sensation) and I joined this forum.

          I decided that wasting another 20 years being annoyed wasn't going to achieve anything, and if I have to spend 20 years attempting to restore what was taken from me, I will. I needed to move on and I think this forum exists because to some degree, we all need support.

          If you want to talk, I (and I hope we) will always listen, and never judge. I'm restoring for me, and if I can help anyone else along the way, I will.

          Do it for you, don't let it plague you any longer.

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          • #6
            Originally posted by scotsman85 View Post
            Sorry to hear that you're so affected by it, I have felt like that too, and for years I thought "why me?why can't I be normal?" you need to talk it through with a partner, friend, medical professional or better still, a forum like this, we're all on the same page here.

            I'm new to this forum too and I have been amazed by the breadth of advice and information offered and the topics covered, I have a lot of mental hang-ups about being circumcised, and have had for the last 20 years, last Tuesday I went to see a urologist about restoring my foreskin (+ gaining some sensation) and I joined this forum.

            I decided that wasting another 20 years being annoyed wasn't going to achieve anything, and if I have to spend 20 years attempting to restore what was taken from me, I will. I needed to move on and I think this forum exists because to some degree, we all need support.

            If you want to talk, I (and I hope we) will always listen, and never judge. I'm restoring for me, and if I can help anyone else along the way, I will.

            Do it for you, don't let it plague you any longer.
            So, how did your visit to the urologist go pertaining to restoration? Was he receptive or offer any insight or advice? Or was he just your typical circum-fetishist?

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            • #7
              He has never seen anyone wanting to restore, he was positive that I should try, gave me cream for trying to soften the skin and hopefully gain sensation, and also a roll of 1/2"and 1" tape, he's going to research restoring devices and techniques and wants to see me in 3 months.

              Seemed interested rather than creepy, I'm guessing restoration isn't a big thing over here, but then again, I have never seen anyone else who is circumcised.

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              • #8
                Doing manual tugging 30 minuites every day itself is very effective. You can also divide this 30 min to different sessions a day.

                If you dont like retaining with tape you can try Your Skin Cone or o-rings. They work well with the YSC more safer when retaining while sleep.

                Also if confiding to your aquintances wont work you will do very well in this forums. You can surf around and many people who are restored or still restoring are very glad they tugged.

                KOT!

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