i'm planning my suicide

[electrorganique]

i'm sorry if throughout the years mostly i wrote on this section.

i did everything i could reach out for doing with this any better, but i'm not disciplined enough to do foreskin restoration. no opotions for surgery either.
i'm permanently broken mentally so does physically. i tried to accept my body as it is and make the better use of that but... i just can't.

i would like to thank everyone who could say something supportive while i could speak out about this.

but it's the dead end for me. i'm planning my suicide.

'im deeply grateful for the ones who could support me. i just wanted to say that before i go.

[vbnm0124]

Don’t even say that. We are much more than our foreskins. Help is available - for whatever the reason. Call the hotline - dial 988.

[mlwj]

Restoration doesn't take discipline - putting a device on takes a few seconds and it does all the work for you.

Even if you wanted to just do a manual routine, I just do manual while doing other stuff like watching YouTube, movies or TV.

[mlwj]

There's plenty more to live for than your dick, too. Sex is great but there's meaning in so much more. For me that's the outdoors. Maybe at least get out and explore some national and state parks, or doing whatever else you've wanted to do.

[forescore]

I look to the Lord in these times. May he give you strength to find the spark in life that can turn into a flame of passion. I pray. Reach out to someone who can guide you through this rough time. There is help a phone call away as someone has posted above. Use whatever resources that you can.

[Going Hooded]

I know how powerful emotions can be. I am going through this with the death of an aunt from cancer that was a special part of my life.

Through this web site you have access to other men who understand. Since you've been honest about your feelings we are able to be a source of strength for you.

Foreskin restoration is as mundane as brushing your teeth. There is the possibility of guys checking in on you that you are engaging in a routine that matches your life style needs.

I know this is a very dark day for you. You will get through this. Pain is temporary. Pride is for a life time. Seeing yourself being successful at restoring your foreskin with the time commitment this takes will heal the pain.

Emotions act as a barometer for how you are feeling. They effect much of life. You don't need to make them bigger than they actually are. I think it would be helpful for you to have some affirmation statements prepared ahead of time for when powerful emotions hit you. From the people that responded to your post one of these could be "I am cared about". Another might be "I can find a way." You could also draw strength from past victories in your life with "I have overcome past obstacles". This might help give just you courage in the moment.

I'd like to ask you a question that only you'll know the answer: Is it being circumcised that is the real issue? Is there other grief that joined onto the emotional pain of being circumcised and being circumcised is the one extra thing that became overwhelming? Grief doesn't have to be just about someone dying. This could be a loss of relationships or unemployment.

I just finished taking a 7 week grief support group from my aunt dying. It was miserable. I've been going to a social worker for additional one on one help. This has also been miserable. But both have been very much worth it. I have a physical disability. I needed help this time around with someone close to me dying. It was too hard doing this alone because of my physical disability not being stable. This has been a sufficiently difficult 5 months. It is starting to pay off. With the other men that have responded to you today I can assure you that if you face the hard times there will be other men in your corner. You don't need to do this alone. I very much appreciate you being honest and transparent. I bet the few sentences you typed were some of the hardest you've ever spoke. I challenge you to give foreskin restoration a second chance and to be open to personal growth.

[admin]

i'm sorry if throughout the years mostly i wrote on this section.

i did everything i could reach out for doing with this any better, but i'm not disciplined enough to do foreskin restoration. no opotions for surgery either.
i'm permanently broken mentally so does physically. i tried to accept my body as it is and make the better use of that but... i just can't.

i would like to thank everyone who could say something supportive while i could speak out about this.

but it's the dead end for me. i'm planning my suicide.

'im deeply grateful for the ones who could support me. i just wanted to say that before i go.

Trained responders staff the national suicide support line you'd reach by dialing 988.

You could call every day for the next 1000 years and eventually educate all of their responders about an issue that probably wasn't covered in training.

[Frizzen]

Electrorganique In looking through your posts it seems like you're in Brazil, so i found this

Brazil Suicide Hotline: 212339191

https://blog.opencounseling.com/hotlines-br/

http://www.suicide.org/hotlines/international/brazil-suicide-hotlines.html

Safe Tears app

https://www.forbes.com/sites/andrewwight/2020/05/27/these-girls-from-brazil-built-a-suicide-prevention-app-for-gen-z/

Your country doesn't have anywhere near the genital mutilation rate that mine does, so you should have a much easier time finding people there who can understand the importance of the loss.

From your uploaded pictures, it looks like you have been making progress. A big problem with getting into a good routine for something is making it become a habit. Most places suggest that if you can do something for 3 months straight you can make it become a consistant routine

Maybe switch up your routines by trying out some other methods? Some of us are willing to order and reship devices to places that won't normally ship there

if you're still around, we're here for you. We understand the struggles and want to help. We all end up in darkness sometimes, but you've got brothers here that want to help you find more light.

[Frizzen]

I know that my post here wasn't very powerful, so i also reached out to him through the PM system. If anyone else is in this kind of place, or thinking these types of thoughts:

Please, PLEASE ask for help. Reach out to someone.

The men here aren't trained for this, we aren't professionals. We don't have checklists, emergency resources, practice at doing this, or much else like that. However, unlike the professionals, we understand, we know this road you're on. Our main qualification was being strapped down, getting sexually assaulted with a knife, leaving with our genitals mutilated, and having to try to figure out how to cope with life this way. You are not alone.

Anyway, i sent him this:
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Trying to grow foreskin is a horrible struggle of a journey. The emotions we go through suck.
I started stretching mine in 2002. June of last year made 20 years of me trying to restore foreskin. Its longer, doens't hurt or bleed anymore, but i still am not close to where i want to be. It gets better, take it one day at a time, grow one cell at a time.

it gets better
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He responded.

[forescore]

Well done, thanks 😊.